Tuesday, January 02, 2007

rambling on....

ppl i need help...i ve jst discovered dat i ve dis infuriatin habbit of day dreamin rt in da middl of my semester xamz!!!!it started harmlessly enuf...durin da sessionals..i hd hd a bad break up..n i dint knw a word of da subjz in any case...so i ended up ponderin ovr da meanin of life durin dose peaceful hrz...it wz kinda...my time fo myself...but nw it hz becum a very real problem..ok granted..i hardly know anythin in da xamz evn nw..but i knw i cud atleast try attemptin more qz if i concentrated...
but oh dese thots n dreams...dey just wont stop!!!
n bout dese thots...at 1st dey wr jst ramblings...bout nature of life...hw unfair life wz...den hw FAIR life wz...den hw it wz ME whu cud make my life fair or unfair...m stickin by da last option z of nw...(like sum1 sed...til da camera changez!!!)now i want to mk more of my life...have had enuf of just freakin out n roamin arnd n chatterin away n meanin wel fo evry1 in da world...now(after da xamz!!!) i want 2 do sum quality work...help out in sum ngo...regular hrz...i know of a few...but its nt just dat..i wil take up sketchin again...i know i wz gud,but left it in da middl sumhow...ve 2 join CAT coachin...a comp course...shaily se guitar classes resume karni hain...oh wait...i ve 2 clean ma room 2!!!! :)
n i want 2 learn 2 say no!!!!!!i ve to stop tryin 2 b evrythin evry1 wants me 2 b...u know wot??i think i identify wid sumthin or da othr in evrybody!!!n so i try 2 fit in2 deir idea of me...killin my identity in da process...i go 2 much by wot certain ppl think of me...its not dat i dnt ve a mind of my own...just dat i dont share my mind dat easy...or i camouflage it,paint it a lil rosy,to suite da othr personz sensibilties...cant help it!!!i keep da real stuf 2 myself...da opinions...m nt judgemental by nature...i alwyz try 2 find sum rational reason fr wotevr sum1z duin...i strictly believ dat dere z no absolute evil...just ppl whu giv in easily 2 sum temptations n pleasures...nw i alwyz try 2 reason y dose temptations r imp 2 dese ppl...ok here i think v r digressin frm da topic...oh wait...dere wz no topic to start wid!!!!lol!!!
tomz a tuff xam!!!!so wil tel u wot new thots flitted by!!! ;)
luv al!!!

10 comments:

Tensor said...

u dont know me, or u've forgotten me..
hardly matters now, chill,

curious to know how waz ur egg-jam the other day?
keep posting

Tensor said...

dont get so curious dear, we talked only once on orkut, guess u talk 2 a lot of ppl, so its ok if u don rem me.

m still curious how was ur exam next day?

m still here... said...

m happy for u.. n remember wat i told u...
v r thr brside u..

purva said...

thnx shaily... :)

r said...

Its like,ill motivate u n then ur motivation will motivate me.lol..
Ati sundar.
Hriday prasanna ho gaya.

Tensor said...

long time !!
no blog ???

Dhawal Kapadia said...

u should stop giving exams...

Sidharth said...

well to be true to u after reading the whole blog u have left me confused...and also motivated and forced me to think as to what am i doin.....i feel u r rite about certain things u have said in this blog and i also need to apply them onto me....

suprabh said...

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Ships said...

....i still find each day too short for all the thoughts i want to think,all the walks i want to take,all the buks i want to read.....""so huny if et ol u've started daydreamin....it shouldn't create much of a problem...itz jus a simple alternative,wich"ll let ur mind fly high widout ne bondages... and formulae new ideas....so relaxx....
peace....tak cre...
...shilpi...