Tuesday, December 05, 2006

m feelin fine!!!

ve to pick ma thots...
ve been runnin fr too long nw...
ve to face wotever it wz dat i fought..

pain wz a constant companion
but nw ve decided to smile
not jst smile thru d ruin dat wz my life..
but for a life where i thrive!!

lifez essentialy gud,ve discovered
d pain is real i know
but when it rules ur life n all ur thots,
its just self pity,dats vulgar n low!!!

i knw i ve yet to c a lot..
whn one's cryin,our own tears r all v cn c..
but i stand humbled now..
n a lot more matured i cn claim 2 b!!!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

fade to black

Life it seems,
will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now hes gone

No one but me can save myself,
but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm,
now I will just say good-bye

Friday, September 01, 2006

???

i just died tonight
very quitely i died
my life didnt flash by my eyes
nothing was liberated..

unasked is still unasked
unanswered remains unanswered
i know i died tonight
coz nothing can ever be the same..

everything broke so quitely
a silent devil at work
time is still dragging by
y am i still keeping count???

.....

i wish sleep came easy today
now i'm left with nothing on my bed
i'm left to wonder if the silence we endured
wasnt better than this void..

pl come back,pl tell me its all fine
pl hold me and dont let me speak..
dont let me confirm all the doubts
i wish u'd prove me wrong..

i cant wish u happiness without me
i hope u cant get me out
u told me u needed me
i cant imagine that u lied!

i m still waiting here
i wish sleep would come
because it pains,it pains a lot..
to wish for u to come..

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

this is my b'day gift frm lallan!!

i will give you a poem when u wake tommorow
it will be a peaceful poem
it wont make u sad
it wont make u msierable
it will simply be a poem to give you
when u wake tommorow

it was not written by myself alone
i cannot lay claim to it
i found it in your body
in your smile i found it
will u recognise it?

you will find it under your pillow
when you open the cupboard it will be there
you will blink in astonishment
shout out"how it trembles"
its nakedness is startling! how fresh it tastes

we will have it for the breakfast
on a table lit by loving
at a place resreved for wonder
we will give the world a kissing open
when u wake tommorow

we will offer it to the sad landlord out on the balcony
to the dreamers at the window
to the hand waving for no particular reason
we will offer it
and amazing and most remarkable thing
we will offer it to the whole human race
which walks in us
when we wake tommorow

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i tried

i tried nd failed..
life didnt look bright...
i tried,i tried..

i knew d stakes were high..
i just couldnt c d end..
i percieved d thorny patches..
at d end of d tunnel,there was no light
but i tried,i tried..

d way looked promising
d wheather was nice..
it wasnt raining
and d sun wasnt too bright
thats why,i tried,i tried..

i saw a whole new world
a lot of truths and some lies
i saw behind all d facades
from where i stood at d great height
and so i m glad..i tried,i tried..

Thursday, July 27, 2006

thanks


had been left for dead..
vultures were flocking to me
i wanted u touch me to see if i still AM
..u held me for an eternal while!!!

my great fall had left me dazed..
everything broken and trampled on
i wanted u to help me stand
..u walked wth me that lonely mile!!!

d stage was set,my soul was warmed..
d frozen thoughts were finally drawn
i wanted u to wipe my tear
...nd u showed me how to smile!!!

kyun???


aaj tumhara khayal nahi aaya..
muddaton se jis din ka intezaar tha
aaj wo din aa gaya
fir ye dil kyun bhar aaya?

hasi,jo gum si ho gayi thi
kyun uss hasi pe rona aa gaya?

socha tha ek din jeeloongi firse
fir aaj jeekar kyun maut ka khayal aa gaya?

naam to kafi gehra likha tha tumhara
in raaston pe,in raaton pe..
ye naya mukhota to nahi hai
to itni jaldi wo naam kaise khurad gaya?

khush to bohot hun aaj main..
par ye bekhudi ka khayal kyun aa gaya?
this one's lallan's creation..one of my fav.s...

jane kyun mukhauta laga nikalte ho bahar
aawaz-e-neeyat se baad mein pehchane to jaate ho
ab to taare bhi kam pad gaye hain aasmaan ke saare
har mulakat pe jo naya naam batate ho


-lallan

waves


d waves r crashing
d sound resounds
its painful fr d wave,
but its jst one in d crowd..

howls in pain..
it shrieks nd shouts..
d motion it cant stop
it jst cant turn around..

d rocks' all wet
for ages thts been its fate
slapped nd beaten
to b in d way of a gentle wave

d unlikely warriors
caught in an unwilling battle
d defeated though shattered
d victor not triumphant

and he says...
look how beautiful it all looks!!!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

when i ws a kid


.....i dont know how this one starts or ends..just found this scrap in an old file..must b atleast 10 yrs old..older probably..here goes..




...and be tomboyish all the more
my passions will increase
my loves multiply
but my freedom wont be sacrificed!!!
the thrill wont die!!!

thats how i c my future
quite different from yours,isnt it?
but thats d way it is!
not like my parents' or yours..
thats what i think now
i wish i will think the same
ten years henceforth.